Aagahi Ka Qatra Qatra Zahr, Urdu Nazam By Mubarak Akmal Gilani

mujhe batao ki main kahan hun
mujhe samjhao main kaun hun kya hun aur kyun hun
main be-basar be-KHabar
safar ki be-rahm saaton ka asir
in raston ka rahi
ki jin ka har sang-e-mil be-chehra be-nishan hai
KHizan-zada barg-e-KHushk
andhi hawa ke pur-shor be-samaat bipharte rele
ki rahguzar par
main an-ginat be-shumar salon se
na-rasai ke karb se dil-e-shikasta aur pa-figar rahi
ki jis ki har sai-e-be-samar ne
ki jis ki har kawish-e-safar ne
kuchh aur manzil ke faslon ko baDha diya hai
misal mere safar ki tamsil-e-al-e-musa
ki apne dasht-e-amal mein apni siyah-baKHti ka hath pakDe
rawan-dawan hun kai zamanon se
aur jab bhi Thahar ke kuchh dekhta hun apne safar ka hasil
to koi manzil na rah-e-manzil
chala tha main jis jagah se ab bhi wahan khaDa hun
mujhe batao ki main kahan hun
mujhe sujhao main kaun hun kya hun aur kyun hun
mere badan par na mera chehra
na mere munh mein zaban meri
na meri aankhen na kan mere
main ajnabi jism ke hawale se apni pahchan ka hun aadi
na soch meri na zehn mera
na fikr meri na mujh ko apna shuur-e-zati
mere tashaKHKHus ke waste mere muhsin-o-chaara-saz late
rahe hain barson
hasin hasin KHush-libas surK-o-safed chehre
koi musir hai safed chehra mere badan par bahaar dega
kisi ko israr surKH-chehra bahut sajega
hasin hasin KHush-libas chehron ki yurish-e-be-panah ke hathon
main apna chehra bhula chuka hun
main apni pahchan kho chuka hun
mujhe dikhao to mera chehra
ki main bhi jaanun
ki main bhi samjhun
main kaisa lagta hun aaine mein
ki meri pahchan mustaqil ho
main apne hi jism ke hawale se apni pahchan to karaun
main kaun hun kya hun aur kyun hun
sawal awwal sawal aaKHir
meri har ek samt aaj likkha hua hai harf-e-sawal dekho
sawal jo soch ki kiran hai
sawal jo aagahi ka zina hai KHud-shanasi ka ek chalan hai
mujhe batao
jawab kitna hi talKH ho us ko main sununga
mujhe pilao
main qatra qatra ye zahr-e-KHud-agahi piyunga
ki is tarah wo jo main nahin hun
ye zahr pi kar miTe to shayad main dekh paun
use jo main hun